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Tuesday, April 10, 2012
I want to be watching Hooray for Love right now.
That's right. Still stuck on this show. 44/57, baybee.
Sadly, dramas are kind of my way of escaping life. It used to be reading and drawing (I still draw a lot, just not intentionally), but then my attention span died during a huge bout of depression and I never really bounced back. I hate that. I used to sit and read for hours and I could just block out the world and now I can barely get through a page without getting distracted. I don't watch much traditional TV because a lot of it doesn't seem interesting, plus there's the whole work and school thing, but sometimes it is nice to relax and get lost. I think the appeal of dramas for me is that they don't take place in America. I get to be entertained and learn about another culture? Count me in.
I have all of my papers due in two weeks. Some of those days I have finals due too. Some of these papers need to be 10 pages. I am afraid. If anyone wants to pray for me, I would really appreciate it. If I had Paint on my computer, I'd draw a picture, but me writing papers basically goes like this: Have good idea>write intro>procrastinate for an hour or two>write a page>procrastinate for another hour because I feel that I've earned it>write half a page>feel stressed because it's getting late>write some more>procrastinate>bang out everything right up to the deadline, not know what I'm saying anymore but it sounds good, not go to sleep, and ending a) drive to Houston to turn paper in or b) turn it in online and sleep. I'm worried that I'm not going to be able to work and do finals at the same time. I hate that my teachers push everything to the week before finals week. You know how there is a dead week and then finals? I never have finals when they are actually scheduled to be. Teachers always push them to the last week of class. -__- Thanks, guys.
The main reason I am excited to move out is not because I live in a pantry, but because I want to have my own kitchen. I love living here (which I better since I don't really have anywhere else to go), but I miss fresh vegetables and having weird food in the fridge. I'd also like to take up yoga, as well as exercise. Being healthy shouldn't have to depend on where you live or your income, but those are really the main parts of it and that sucks. I don't have space to exercise and it's usually dark by the time I get home so I can't go outside. I have less than half a shelf of space in the fridge so I mostly just buy dry goods and keep them in a tote bag in the kitchen, buy small things like hummus and carcinogen-free lunch meat, and hope that someone will bring home something fresh. I did share this plight with my mom and she was nice and got me this:
Sauerkraut is one of my favorite foods. Pretty much all pickled things are, except maybe creepy things like pig's feet. I would love to try making kimchi either when I get more space or if my friend Pete lets me come over. He likes cooking ventures.
Oh yeah, and while I'm posting pictures, this was Easter:
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Some of you might know this fella. He's my boyfriend. We like each other sometimes. He is pretty great. ^-^
Ok, rock talk.
I got out of the habit of praying for awhile. Like, two months. I slipped into depression, which I might have posted about. Dunno. It keeps coming back and I keep having to fight it off but it's hard to do that when you don't feel like doing anything. I think it must always be there, lurking and chronic, and sometimes it just gets worse. The past two months were particularly bad. Parts of my face that never broke out before broke out, and so did my neck, which has never happened. I was irritable every single day, especially with Seth. I pushed God away even though He was what I needed the most.
I'm trying to get myself out of this. A couple of days ago I started praying consistently again. I read the Bible when I feel called to do so. I guess I started trying for real again. It's just hard to live right every day.
Bed time.
Thank you for existing. <3
Sadly, dramas are kind of my way of escaping life. It used to be reading and drawing (I still draw a lot, just not intentionally), but then my attention span died during a huge bout of depression and I never really bounced back. I hate that. I used to sit and read for hours and I could just block out the world and now I can barely get through a page without getting distracted. I don't watch much traditional TV because a lot of it doesn't seem interesting, plus there's the whole work and school thing, but sometimes it is nice to relax and get lost. I think the appeal of dramas for me is that they don't take place in America. I get to be entertained and learn about another culture? Count me in.
I have all of my papers due in two weeks. Some of those days I have finals due too. Some of these papers need to be 10 pages. I am afraid. If anyone wants to pray for me, I would really appreciate it. If I had Paint on my computer, I'd draw a picture, but me writing papers basically goes like this: Have good idea>write intro>procrastinate for an hour or two>write a page>procrastinate for another hour because I feel that I've earned it>write half a page>feel stressed because it's getting late>write some more>procrastinate>bang out everything right up to the deadline, not know what I'm saying anymore but it sounds good, not go to sleep, and ending a) drive to Houston to turn paper in or b) turn it in online and sleep. I'm worried that I'm not going to be able to work and do finals at the same time. I hate that my teachers push everything to the week before finals week. You know how there is a dead week and then finals? I never have finals when they are actually scheduled to be. Teachers always push them to the last week of class. -__- Thanks, guys.
The main reason I am excited to move out is not because I live in a pantry, but because I want to have my own kitchen. I love living here (which I better since I don't really have anywhere else to go), but I miss fresh vegetables and having weird food in the fridge. I'd also like to take up yoga, as well as exercise. Being healthy shouldn't have to depend on where you live or your income, but those are really the main parts of it and that sucks. I don't have space to exercise and it's usually dark by the time I get home so I can't go outside. I have less than half a shelf of space in the fridge so I mostly just buy dry goods and keep them in a tote bag in the kitchen, buy small things like hummus and carcinogen-free lunch meat, and hope that someone will bring home something fresh. I did share this plight with my mom and she was nice and got me this:
Oh yeah, and while I'm posting pictures, this was Easter:
.JPG)
Ok, rock talk.
I got out of the habit of praying for awhile. Like, two months. I slipped into depression, which I might have posted about. Dunno. It keeps coming back and I keep having to fight it off but it's hard to do that when you don't feel like doing anything. I think it must always be there, lurking and chronic, and sometimes it just gets worse. The past two months were particularly bad. Parts of my face that never broke out before broke out, and so did my neck, which has never happened. I was irritable every single day, especially with Seth. I pushed God away even though He was what I needed the most.
I'm trying to get myself out of this. A couple of days ago I started praying consistently again. I read the Bible when I feel called to do so. I guess I started trying for real again. It's just hard to live right every day.
Bed time.
Thank you for existing. <3
Labels: easter, finals, God, hooray for love, kimchi, sauerkraut, school, south korea
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