This winter break has been nice in that I am not in school, but it's killing me in other ways. There's a void where the homework was and it settles deep down in my stomach and I'm not sure what to do with that emptiness.

All this time, nothing to fill it with. The books I like to read leave me feeling numb, being around electronics leaves me feeling numb, staying inside leaves me feeling numb. On one hand, I'm very glad to be where I am because there is country all around me and I do badly in Houston even though I love it there, for very different reasons. The windows are open a lot here, which wasn't true when I was living in Old Ocean, mainly because there weren't any windows. I am constantly around people here, which I love, but it's also very easy to get distracted and to not be productive.

My resolutions?

-To exercise. I need those endorphins and sunshine.
-To get glasses again. My head and eyes have been killing me all semester and hopefully that will fix it.
- To eat better. I love vegetables but they're kind of few and far between here, so I need to start buying my own.
- And most of all, to pray more and to seek His face. This is the area in my life where I am lacking the most, and coincidentally, it is also what is necessary to fix all of my problems and to get to feeling better. Fail.

22 in less than a week now. Age is becoming nothing but a number.

Goodnight.

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