Right now I am drinking Pyramid apricot ale and eating a granola bar.

A lot has happened:

-I graduated (I think. Haven't actually gotten the diploma yet).
-I am now single. I don't think anything else needs to be said about that. I've already said too much in earlier entries. I am doing okay, most days.
-I am currently getting certified to teach English. The more I learn, the more I love it. The more it seems that this is what God has always had for me. It's not like stuff is magically falling into place, I just actually like using my imagination to figure out lesson plans and to get kids engaged. And I like kids, especially teenagers.

I was really depressed last semester. It made me mean toward the people I love and it made me feel like the world was ending. I cried a lot, and I don't usually cry at all. The summer has had a bad start, but I'm trying to live right here, right now, by seeing my friends a lot and reading. Getting closer to God as well. That's an important one.

Graduating was really hard. I feel as though I have stepped off into blank space. I have a goal, technically, but this is it, this is all there is. This is life. Now what? I have teaching. I'm willing to move across the state in order to get a job, so once I'm certified, I'm not too worried about actually finding a job. There's a lot more out there than people think. I guess I'm afraid of starting something new. It feels like it was forced on me. It's scary not having a foreseeable future.

Labels: acp, english, graduate, post college, summer, teaching