break the silence
melodies
long gone
Tuesday, March 19, 2013
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
Monday, February 11, 2013
Just watched the newest episode of Girls. It's the show I wanted to hate, but I just can't. All of the actions and conversations that happen on this show feel real, but the overall "feeling" of this episode resonated the most with me.
I realize that was a ridiculous few sentences about a television show. Yes.
Uhhhhh.
Got laid off from JCP. My position no longer exists as of March 10th, 2013. I'm working there until then and trying to save as much money as I can because I only work 15 hours a week at the after school job.
I am supposed to be applying for real jobs but the applications really scare me and so I have not fully completed a single one and the one for the job I really want is due this week.
Real life is scary.
Also, I need to take a shower because I smell bad.
I realize that was a ridiculous few sentences about a television show. Yes.
Uhhhhh.
Got laid off from JCP. My position no longer exists as of March 10th, 2013. I'm working there until then and trying to save as much money as I can because I only work 15 hours a week at the after school job.
I am supposed to be applying for real jobs but the applications really scare me and so I have not fully completed a single one and the one for the job I really want is due this week.
Real life is scary.
Also, I need to take a shower because I smell bad.
Labels: girls, life, post-college
2:19 PM
Monday, January 14, 2013
Labels: adorable, books, cats, creating, dreaming, fun, hugs, kawaii, kittens, laughter, long walks, love, music, neko, road trips, sleep, sunsets, tea
9:54 PM
'Cause I'm living it, apparently.
Hi guys. It's been ages. Bloody freakin' ages. I feel like a lot has happened and nothing has happened all at once.
-I graduated. For real this time. At least I should have. The status is still pending online and I'm waiting for my diploma to show up at Mom's.
-I went to Passion Conference in Atlanta with Rachel, Starling, and Keelena. Francis Chan stole my heart except not really because he is old and married and Chris Tomlin convinced me not to hate him anymore. Except for that dancefloor song. That was really lame.
-I moved into my Pastor's house. Things got too crazy at Dad's.
-Things got too crazy at Mom's too. We are piecing things back together but it doesn't work a lot of the time.
-I haven't seen my Mema in a long time and that probably makes me a bad grandchild.
-I lost a few pounds. Trying to lose a few more.
-I ate at Waffle House. They didn't have fried chicken. It was bad.
-I got addicted to How I Met Your Mother like I always said I would not do.
-I have met some awesome South Korean and Japanese people my age online and we have become penpals. It's great learning about their cultures and talking to new people.
-I turned 23.
That's all I can think of right now.
As you can tell, this place looks a little different. I'm still trying to figure out all of the HTML but it's a start. I love learning this stuff and taking it apart, so it's a long but good experience. ^^
Resolutions:
*create more.
*get through my to-do lists and stop procrastinating.
*get a [real] job/move out/get a cat.
*buy that G15 and take photos again.
*discover more new music like I used to.
*dress better. Soon I will be too old to wear a lot of these clothes.
*continue to eat healthful food.
*be a better friend. In 2012 I tried to give more of my time with others and I feel like I got a lot out of it.
*work on a second language.
*go somewhere big.
I just got a job interview?! At Brazoswood High School as a credit recovery aid. They want me to come in in the morning, so guess I will prep the best I can tonight. Daaaaaaang.
Currently listening to: The xx-xx
Hi guys. It's been ages. Bloody freakin' ages. I feel like a lot has happened and nothing has happened all at once.
-I graduated. For real this time. At least I should have. The status is still pending online and I'm waiting for my diploma to show up at Mom's.
-I went to Passion Conference in Atlanta with Rachel, Starling, and Keelena. Francis Chan stole my heart except not really because he is old and married and Chris Tomlin convinced me not to hate him anymore. Except for that dancefloor song. That was really lame.
-I moved into my Pastor's house. Things got too crazy at Dad's.
-Things got too crazy at Mom's too. We are piecing things back together but it doesn't work a lot of the time.
-I haven't seen my Mema in a long time and that probably makes me a bad grandchild.
-I lost a few pounds. Trying to lose a few more.
-I ate at Waffle House. They didn't have fried chicken. It was bad.
-I got addicted to How I Met Your Mother like I always said I would not do.
-I have met some awesome South Korean and Japanese people my age online and we have become penpals. It's great learning about their cultures and talking to new people.
-I turned 23.
That's all I can think of right now.
As you can tell, this place looks a little different. I'm still trying to figure out all of the HTML but it's a start. I love learning this stuff and taking it apart, so it's a long but good experience. ^^
Resolutions:
*create more.
*get through my to-do lists and stop procrastinating.
*get a [real] job/move out/get a cat.
*buy that G15 and take photos again.
*discover more new music like I used to.
*dress better. Soon I will be too old to wear a lot of these clothes.
*continue to eat healthful food.
*be a better friend. In 2012 I tried to give more of my time with others and I feel like I got a lot out of it.
*work on a second language.
*go somewhere big.
I just got a job interview?! At Brazoswood High School as a credit recovery aid. They want me to come in in the morning, so guess I will prep the best I can tonight. Daaaaaaang.
Currently listening to: The xx-xx
Labels: Atlanta, Baby L, Canon, cat, interview, Japan, job, L, new years, Passion 2013, Passion Conference, south korea, Waffle House, WaHo, xx
1:56 PM
Friday, September 14, 2012
I'm gonna miss you
I'm gonna miss you
When you're gone
She says, I love you
I'm gonna miss you
And your songs
And I said, please
Don't talk about the end
Don't talk about how
Every living thing goes away
She said, friend
All along I thought
I was learning how to take
How to bend not how to break
How to live not how to cry
But really
I've been learning how to die
I've been learning how to die
Hey everyone
I've got nowhere to go
The grave is lazing me
He takes our body slow
And I said, please
Don't talk about the end
Don't talk about how
Every living thing goes away
I said, friend,
All along I thought
I was learning how to take
How to bend not how to break
How to live not how to cry
But really
I've been learning how to die
I've been learning how to die
Die, die
I've been learning how to die
I've been learning how to die
I'm gonna miss you
When you're gone
She says, I love you
I'm gonna miss you
And your songs
And I said, please
Don't talk about the end
Don't talk about how
Every living thing goes away
She said, friend
All along I thought
I was learning how to take
How to bend not how to break
How to live not how to cry
But really
I've been learning how to die
I've been learning how to die
Hey everyone
I've got nowhere to go
The grave is lazing me
He takes our body slow
And I said, please
Don't talk about the end
Don't talk about how
Every living thing goes away
I said, friend,
All along I thought
I was learning how to take
How to bend not how to break
How to live not how to cry
But really
I've been learning how to die
I've been learning how to die
Die, die
I've been learning how to die
I've been learning how to die
Labels: autumn, fall, guitar, I miss you, jon foreman, smashing, takamine
1:14 AM
A lot more has happened:
-I didn't graduate. There was a clerical error and I wasn't told. It turns out my D+ in Personality Psych wasn't high enough to count toward my minor (needed a C), so I am retaking that class. Again. I did not receive financial aid because it's a retake. Yes. All of this sucks.
-I got a second job at an after school program. I like it (for the most part). I mostly tutor 6-8th graders, but I also do activities with them and am going to be doing a few big projects with them, like making a movie and teaching them about college.
-I filled out a low-income apartment application this week. Then I never turned it in because I realized my income was too low to have any hope of being able to support myself and still make rent and bills.
-I am organizing a trip to the Passion Conference in Atlanta January 1-4. When I first heard of it, I was only casually interested but the more I learned about it, the more excited I got. Then I sat down and figured up the math and realized there was no way my tiny church could fundraise enough money for registration costs. I called off the trip, threw away my figures, and then gave in to the nudging in the back of my mind: ask the conference leaders for financial help. S agreed to write a letter asking for a way to be made for us to attend, and the night I prayed, telling God that there was no way we could pay for this on our own, the money just doesn't exist and we don't have the time to raise it. I asked Him to please let us receive assistance if He really wanted us to go to the conference, and if He didn't that was okay too, He didn't have to provide the money and we could just do something different. But He did provide. We are getting two tickets for free and two at a discounted cost. It feels so good to know that God not only provided for us, but that He wants us to attend, that He is blessing this trip. He is making a way. ^__^
A real blog post will happen sometime. I still don't have internet but I am about to change that because I am going crazy. It's gotten to a point of desperacy.
<3 p="p">Sarah
-I didn't graduate. There was a clerical error and I wasn't told. It turns out my D+ in Personality Psych wasn't high enough to count toward my minor (needed a C), so I am retaking that class. Again. I did not receive financial aid because it's a retake. Yes. All of this sucks.
-I got a second job at an after school program. I like it (for the most part). I mostly tutor 6-8th graders, but I also do activities with them and am going to be doing a few big projects with them, like making a movie and teaching them about college.
-I filled out a low-income apartment application this week. Then I never turned it in because I realized my income was too low to have any hope of being able to support myself and still make rent and bills.
-I am organizing a trip to the Passion Conference in Atlanta January 1-4. When I first heard of it, I was only casually interested but the more I learned about it, the more excited I got. Then I sat down and figured up the math and realized there was no way my tiny church could fundraise enough money for registration costs. I called off the trip, threw away my figures, and then gave in to the nudging in the back of my mind: ask the conference leaders for financial help. S agreed to write a letter asking for a way to be made for us to attend, and the night I prayed, telling God that there was no way we could pay for this on our own, the money just doesn't exist and we don't have the time to raise it. I asked Him to please let us receive assistance if He really wanted us to go to the conference, and if He didn't that was okay too, He didn't have to provide the money and we could just do something different. But He did provide. We are getting two tickets for free and two at a discounted cost. It feels so good to know that God not only provided for us, but that He wants us to attend, that He is blessing this trip. He is making a way. ^__^
A real blog post will happen sometime. I still don't have internet but I am about to change that because I am going crazy. It's gotten to a point of desperacy.
<3 p="p">Sarah
Labels: Christian, college, fundraising, God, Jesus, Passion Conference, poverty, youth, youth leader
1:04 AM